Being alone is one thing; choosing to be alone is something else entirely. But if it were up to Watashi, she’d be alone through any means possible, whether by default or by choice. It wasn’t until a bit of maturity on Watashi’s behalf did she finally change her stance on solitude and reverse her antisocial behavior. This occurred when Watashi learned the valuable and timeless lesson to accept others for who they are and not to exclude them for what you think they are. And though she faced difficulties and challenges, Watashi overcame her fear of friendship and changed, nay, improved her life forever.
Through her best efforts, Watashi isolated herself from everyone at her school. Devoting herself to her studies and trying to advance as quickly as possible in order to forever leave this school, Watashi never found the time or the purpose to make friends and form other relationships with her fellow students. A combination of her introverted philosophy and harsh personality saw Watashi end up alone, what she desired at her school. Alone and studious. Alone and a target.
With her seclusion came her unhappiness. She was a target for bullies, being tormented by their attacks and unruly behavior. It put Watashi on the defensive in regards to those around her, effectively shutting herself off to everyone that tried to contact her. Even potential friends, like Curly and Y, were seen as enemies, as the root of her problem. This malicious cycle culminated with Watashi breaking down one night, unable to bear her torture anymore and admitting defeat to the ideals that were founded in lies and pain. Watashi could not live alone, isolated. Neither could the fairy she rescued; death awaits fairies who live alone. So with Watashi pleading for relief, for salvation from her hell, her only friend, the gracious and sympathetic fairy, decided to grant her wish (both through inspiration and by becoming the conductor for RYOBO 230r, denoted by the color change from pearl white to mint green in episode 11).
From that point on, Watashi began to mature as a person. She began to express curiosity toward her fellow students, interested in her peers in addition to her studies. It manifested itself first as sympathy toward Curly who became the target of bullying and isolation herself after following Watashi to Grade 3. Knowing the suffering all too well, and partially to blame for her actions in the past, Watashi offered a hand with a little help from her fairy-controlled robotic friend (it was RYOBO 230r that found Curly’s skirt for Watashi). At this point, it’s worth noting that Watashi never really accepted Curly nor the members of the Wild Rose Society, meaning she was not attempting to make a friendship with her yet and only did so as a means to prevent Curly from enduring such unpleasant hardships. Watashi’s curiosity continued further, this time toward Y, which eventually resulted with Watashi enacting her revenge by bullying Y with her cherished library of BL and homoerotic novels. Cornered and defeated, Y decided that the only way to save herself would be to save Watashi, too, and in exchange for her silence, Y showed Watashi more than she wanted to know about the people she was befriending. Wanting to return to her isolation immediately, regretting her decision to open up to others, Watashi yearned for her solitude once again, nearly spoiling her maturity so far as a means of escape. But when offered the choice by Y, who by association was the most acceptable and obvious choice for a friend, Watashi jumped at the opportunity to prevent her return to her agonizing loneliness. And given Y’s intelligence, personality, and image, Watashi felt like she found an equal. She realized the benefit of befriending Y despite her awkward BL fetish.
And though a brief exposition and a delightful montage, Watashi was able to reunite herself and Y with the Wild Rose Society, at which point Watashi explains that school finally became fun and that she never felt lonely again. With little exposition or explanation on how this came about or, more importantly, why, it becomes a remarkable point of analysis on Watashi’s character. Just prior to these scenes, we saw how Watashi feared for her life and her safety as she was hanging around with a bunch of psychopaths and lunatics in her club. She wanted to avoid them by any means, unaccepting of their behaviors after discovering their true selves. She wanted to exclude herself from this circle because of what she though these girls were. But after befriending Y, despite her BL obsession, Watashi slowly learned that people are more than what we think. Y is an clever, industrious, and rational girl with hints of innocence and trustworthiness. She became an essential ally in Watashi’s quest for the Fairy Tea Party and easily became Watashi’s best friend. And perhaps after seeing how wonderful it made Watashi feel, to have someone to talk to, to share her life with, to aid in her desires, that Watashi felt the need to rekindle her and Y’s relationship with the Wild Rose Society. You figure, in order for Watashi to even consider such a proposition, that she must’ve advanced past the frightful obsessions of each girl and value them for who they are, young ladies who want to be friends with Watashi and find the Fairy Tea Party together. Watashi found the value in friendship with these girls, even if they had some strange tendencies that Watashi would never agree with. And with her rejoining the Wild Rose Society, ignoring her perceived faults with these characters, Watashi was able to form lasting friendships with all these girls. She was able to accept them for who they were and, as a result, Watashi began to enjoy her time at school and never felt lonely again.
From this episode and these scenes were we able to witness the maturity of Watashi, her growth from a troubled child who choose to be alone, to the young lady who enjoyed her life and her friends at school, to the protagonist of the anime who’s social skills allowed her to befriend numerous fairies, an assistant, various townsfolk, and even a couple of pioneers from among the stars. These social skills were essential for Watashi’s success throughout the series and she did so with a kind-hearted, though not always genuine smile on her face. Had the childish Watashi received her wish and never learned the skills of accepting others, then who knows what difficulties and problems Watashi would have faced when she was working as a mediator for the UNCC. Who knows if she even would’ve received the position or lasted on the job for more than a few assignments? Probably not considering how essential it is that she remains on good terms with the local fairies and the local humans.
This episode showed the growth of Watashi from a child to an adult by learning to accept people for who they are. Before, Watashi would use false images and impressions of these people as a reason to avoid them and remain in isolation. It wasn’t until the fairy inspired her (and through helping her as her robotic companion) that Watashi was able to converse with other students and create the opportunity to develop friendship. And when faced with the prospect of returning back to her secluded ways after discovering the terrible images of her ‘friends’, did Watashi magnificently display her development as a character and elect to befriend Y and the others in a true, genuine fashion. It is here were we see Watashi become the character we respected and appreciated throughout the anime, the one we adored and treasured, too. Through these episodes, we saw Watashi improve her life through the simple lesson of valuing people for who they are and not for what we think they are. A lesson, we hope, that all of humanity can learn, even should it be in a slow, steady decline.
Though this is unrelated to the episode and the broadcast version of the anime, the Blu-ray discs and DVDs contain specials for Jinrui wa Suitai Shimashita meaning the series will contain short side-stories from our favorite anime for the next few months. With these, we can retain the magic and relive the wonders of the series as these products are released periodically in the future. And the first one is of special note for me, seeing how the clever nature of the series was not omitted from these specials. And with a focus on the humor, one of my favorite aspects of the anime, I was enamored with the first special released shortly after the broadcast of the television anime concluded. With this being the final post on the anime, Jinrui wa Suitai Shimashita, I want to use this final section, these final thoughts, to urge or remind fans and viewers of this franchise to watch the specials and continue to support the series from here moving forward. I’d love to see the anime continue and have had many thoughts about starting the light novel, if only I can find it translated first. It’s always important to support whatever, especially whoever you love and it is my hope that through these posts and this blog that you continue to support the anime, manga, and whatever else you love. Also, here’s a pic from the special if this part didn’t convince you. Enjoy!